Dan: August 2007 Archives
Just heard this song on TV, something about the lyrics and the feeling of the song resonate with heart. Just thought that I would like to share it.
银色小船摇摇晃晃弯弯 悬在绒绒的天上
你的心事三三俩俩蓝蓝 停在我幽幽心上
你说情到深处人怎能不孤独 爱到浓时就牵肠挂肚 我的行李孤孤单单散散惹惆怅
离人放逐到边界 彷彿走入第五个季节
昼夜乱了和谐 潮氾任性涨退 字典里没有春天
离人挥霍着眼泪 回避还在眼前的离别 你不敢想明天 我不肯说再见
有人说 一次告别天上就会有颗星又熄灭
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银色小船摇摇晃晃弯弯 悬在绒绒的天上
你的心事三三俩俩蓝蓝 停在我幽幽心上
你说情到深处人怎能不孤独 爱到浓时就牵肠挂肚 我的行李孤孤单单散散惹惆怅
离人放逐到边界 彷彿走入第五个季节
昼夜乱了和谐 潮氾任性涨退 字典里没有春天
离人挥霍着眼泪 回避还在眼前的离别 你不敢想明天 我不肯说再见
有人说 一次告别天上就会有颗星又熄灭
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Life is full of surprises. This cannot be truer then ever before. Since I was young, I've always been encouraged to take on challenges. To try and achieve the best that I can and put my best into the things I do. I cannot claim that I've been successful all the time nor even successful most of the time. In fact, the number of failures that I've experience far exceeds the number of success. However, now, I've been put into a position which I do not really know how to conduct myself. It has been bothering me the whole day I really do not know the course of action which I should take.
I'm torn between taking up the challenge or admitting that I'm not ready for it. Seldom do such opportunities come knocking on the door and this opportunity literally fell into my lap. However, I'm seriously taking stock of my own experiences and abilities and I question myself ... am I ready? I will be facing stiff oppositions and a lot of unhappiness as well as the requirements that's expected of me. Will I be able to handle all this pressure? On the other hand, if I were to shy away simply because of the difficulties, I know that I will regret later. This could be the defining point of my life. My future may well be dictated by the decision that I'm about to make. Or do I even have the choice?
I'm afraid, truly. There's a lot of uncertainty and so many variables which are totally out of my control either directly or indirectly. No real ways to neither shape them nor even try to influence them. Its like a storm is raging around me and the harbour is not in sight. Will I be able to ride out this unpredictable weather or will I be engulfed by the waves and wind. Are there hidden ice bergs waiting to sink me or shallow reefs lying in wait to rip the hull of the ship wide open? In the face of a perfect storm, what are the chances of a small ship in the middle of the wide open sea?
To top things off, my own life is in shamble. Not knowing my own feelings and thought. Not knowing where my life is headed. My mind and heart is getting more and more confused by the day. Not sure of my own actions and getting increasing easily affected by my own emotions. Where have all my years of training gone. I thought I have learnt to control my own emotions, to be able to logically dissect and segregate them from my life? Or was I just deceiving myself...
I'm torn between taking up the challenge or admitting that I'm not ready for it. Seldom do such opportunities come knocking on the door and this opportunity literally fell into my lap. However, I'm seriously taking stock of my own experiences and abilities and I question myself ... am I ready? I will be facing stiff oppositions and a lot of unhappiness as well as the requirements that's expected of me. Will I be able to handle all this pressure? On the other hand, if I were to shy away simply because of the difficulties, I know that I will regret later. This could be the defining point of my life. My future may well be dictated by the decision that I'm about to make. Or do I even have the choice?
I'm afraid, truly. There's a lot of uncertainty and so many variables which are totally out of my control either directly or indirectly. No real ways to neither shape them nor even try to influence them. Its like a storm is raging around me and the harbour is not in sight. Will I be able to ride out this unpredictable weather or will I be engulfed by the waves and wind. Are there hidden ice bergs waiting to sink me or shallow reefs lying in wait to rip the hull of the ship wide open? In the face of a perfect storm, what are the chances of a small ship in the middle of the wide open sea?
To top things off, my own life is in shamble. Not knowing my own feelings and thought. Not knowing where my life is headed. My mind and heart is getting more and more confused by the day. Not sure of my own actions and getting increasing easily affected by my own emotions. Where have all my years of training gone. I thought I have learnt to control my own emotions, to be able to logically dissect and segregate them from my life? Or was I just deceiving myself...
Thought I've given up on this blog? If you did, I'm not surprised. I have a bad history of not updating my blog after a period of time or when my interest wanes. Well, this time I actually do have an excuse as to why the extended period of absence. Was trying to reinstall MovableType but somehow I managed to screw up the simple process. The entire publishing engine was down and I did not really know which portion I did wrongly. In addition, has been really busy at work and did not really give priority to this issue.
Well, in any case, finally managed to get everything working again. Issues at work are slowly stabilising and we can finally take a breather. Starting to make plans for the trip to Europe and figure out where we will be going. We have generally decided which countries and cities that we will be visiting. Now, we must start planning on the details and I will post them on the Europe Planner as I do my research. Actually contemplated on buying some travel guides from Borders yesterday but the price was ridiculous. Two books will add up to almost $100! Exorbitant! Guess will have to do it the poor man's way and slowly search around on the internet as well as visit the library.
Things seems to be better these couple of days, the various incidents at work are getting less catastrophic and easier to manage. However, another aspect of working life is really starting to get to me. I wonder is it me that am too naive to believe that as long as things gets done, it doesn't really matter who does it. Is it really that important to segregate work domains and responsibilities? Are we to be bounded by all these red tapes even at the expense of not achieving the necessary milestones? I admit that I'm very impatient and I simply do not like waiting for things to get done simply because of such limitations. In my opinion, it is totally unnecessary and inefficient.
Ok, enough of my complaints, I'm sure someone else is most probably ranting and complaining about me too. Different styles of working I guess. Not that either is right or wrong, I'm sure people with more experiences will tell me that each has its own merits, but hey, I'm a hot-headed and imprudent young man. Can't wait to finish this project and get started on the next one. Have to make sure that lessons learnt from this one do not go to waste. Shall begin researching on my Europe trip now, need to make sure that every day of the trip is utilized. The air tickets are EXPENSIVE!
[Edits] Updates at Europe Planner
Well, in any case, finally managed to get everything working again. Issues at work are slowly stabilising and we can finally take a breather. Starting to make plans for the trip to Europe and figure out where we will be going. We have generally decided which countries and cities that we will be visiting. Now, we must start planning on the details and I will post them on the Europe Planner as I do my research. Actually contemplated on buying some travel guides from Borders yesterday but the price was ridiculous. Two books will add up to almost $100! Exorbitant! Guess will have to do it the poor man's way and slowly search around on the internet as well as visit the library.
Things seems to be better these couple of days, the various incidents at work are getting less catastrophic and easier to manage. However, another aspect of working life is really starting to get to me. I wonder is it me that am too naive to believe that as long as things gets done, it doesn't really matter who does it. Is it really that important to segregate work domains and responsibilities? Are we to be bounded by all these red tapes even at the expense of not achieving the necessary milestones? I admit that I'm very impatient and I simply do not like waiting for things to get done simply because of such limitations. In my opinion, it is totally unnecessary and inefficient.
Ok, enough of my complaints, I'm sure someone else is most probably ranting and complaining about me too. Different styles of working I guess. Not that either is right or wrong, I'm sure people with more experiences will tell me that each has its own merits, but hey, I'm a hot-headed and imprudent young man. Can't wait to finish this project and get started on the next one. Have to make sure that lessons learnt from this one do not go to waste. Shall begin researching on my Europe trip now, need to make sure that every day of the trip is utilized. The air tickets are EXPENSIVE!
[Edits] Updates at Europe Planner
