simplyDan

被爱与悲哀

2008-10-24T10:26:41Z

Ripped this off Chelsey's blog. Amazing how 2 words that sounds so alike but with such disparate meanings yet so intricately twined together.

Bye bye

2008-10-24T10:13:08Z

Off to Australia in a couple of days. This will be the 3rd time I will be visiting Rockhampton, Queensland for yet another exercise. Though it will be on a much lighter note this time round as I will be back with a different status. NSmen! Haha. Hope this in-camp training will be a good opportunity for me to rest and to sort things out. Been rather confused and lost as to what I'm after.

Started private lessons again for my dancing. It is one thing that really makes me happy. The feeling of dancing is so great that it really makes me feel like taking up dancing professionally. However, unless there's a way to earn a decent living from dancing, its really so impractical in Singapore. Will probably try to join some competitions next year, hopefully I can train enough to stand a good chance at the championships.

Been rather disappointed at work recently. How can the management be so selfish and how much empty promises the management can make. Makes me wonder why I have been slogging so hard for them. Its really time to re-evaluate my commitment to them.

Personal life has been crap. Hardly had any time for myself given the amount of time I've been spending at work. Still pretty confused over what I'm really after. Will I be really be able to meet the one?

Fragile

2008-10-19T15:51:50Z

This has been a rather unsettling week for me. Things are happening at such a fast clip that it is rather up to keep up. Also realised that my body and mind is finding it harder and harder to cope with the happenings that are going around me everyday. Age has slowly crept up on me without me realising it.

Received a piece of sad news on Wednesday. Feng Min has passed away. Even now, I find it hard to accept the fact that she's gone. I must admit, I do not know her very well nor for very long. She was a friend during a time when I was having a great deal of difficulties in my life. Her cheerfulness was something that lights up my days of darkness. Her unexpected little gestures that touches my heart. She's someone I will remember always though the times we knew each other is short.

Work-wise, things hasn't been really a bed of roses. I am kind of disappointed with the management team with the way that they are dealing with things and issues. Suffice to say that I will probably not stay very long with the company if things continue this way.

I know that sometimes it is always better to look at the bright side of things and be thankful of what I have and cherish every moment of my life. I have been trying my best but it is not always easy and with the way things are shaping up, its just going to get harder. Makes me wonder if all this is really worth it.

Feeling so drained, the chisel of life has slowly chipped me down. No longer am I sure of why I am doing what I'm doing. How I wish this chisel will be able to break me away from the chains thats tying me to the ghost of the past.

p/s: Feng Min, I will always remember you. May you rest in peace.

我終於失去了妳

2008-10-05T15:06:53Z

當所有的人離開我的時候
妳勸我要耐心等候
並且陪我度過生命中最長的寒冬
如此的寬容
當所有的人靠緊我的時候
妳要我安靜從容
似乎知道我有一顆永不安靜的心
（我）容易蠢動

我終於讓千百雙手在我面前揮舞
我終於擁有了千百個熱情的笑容
我終於讓人群被我深深的打動
我卻忘了告訴妳　妳一直在我心中

啊．．．．
我終於失去了妳　在擁擠的人群中
我終於失去了妳　
當我的人生第一次感到光榮
啊．．．．
我終於失去了妳　在擁擠的人群中
我終於失去了妳
當我的人生第一次感到光榮
當四周掌聲如潮水一般的洶湧
我見到妳眼中有傷心的淚光閃動

月亮惹的禍

2008-10-05T14:51:29Z

都是你的錯輕易愛上我讓我不知不覺滿足被愛的虛榮
都是你的錯你對人的寵是一種誘惑
都是你的錯在你的眼中總是藏著讓人又愛又憐的朦朧
都是你的錯你的癡情夢像一個魔咒
被你愛過還能為誰蠢動
我承認都是月亮惹的禍那樣的月色太美你太溫柔
才會在剎那之間只想和你一起到白頭
我承認都是誓言惹的禍偏偏似糖如蜜說來最動人
再怎麼心如鋼鐵也成繞指柔

都是你的錯輕易愛上我讓我不知不覺滿足被愛的虛榮
都是你的錯你對人的寵是一種誘惑
都是你的錯在你的眼中總是藏著讓人又愛又憐的朦朧
都是你的錯你的癡情夢像一個魔咒
被你愛過還能為誰蠢動
我承認都是月亮惹的禍那樣的月色太美你太溫柔
才會在剎那之間只想和你一起到白頭
我承認都是誓言惹的禍偏偏似糖如蜜說來最動人
再怎麼心如鋼鐵也成繞指柔
怎樣的情生意動會讓兩個人拿一生當承諾

我承認都是誓言惹的禍偏偏似糖如蜜說來最動人
再怎麼心如鋼鐵也成繞指柔
我承認都是月亮惹的禍那樣的月色太美你太溫柔
才會在剎那之間只想和你一起到白頭
我承認都是誓言惹的禍偏偏似糖如蜜說來最動人
再怎麼心如鋼鐵也成繞指柔

萧煌奇 - 你是我的眼

2008-09-07T05:27:59Z

如果我能看得见
就能轻易的分辨白天黑夜
就能准确的在人群中牵住你的手
如果我能看得见
就能驾车带你到处遨游
就能惊喜的从背后给你一个拥抱
如果我能看得见
生命也许完全不同
可能我想要的我喜欢的我爱的都不一样
眼前的黑不是黑你说的白是什么白
人们说的天空蓝
是我记忆中那团白云背后的蓝天
我望向你的脸却只能看见一片虚无
是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘忘了掀开
你是我的眼带我领略四季的变换
你是我的眼带我穿越拥挤的人潮
你是我的眼带我阅读浩瀚的书海
因为你是我的眼让我看见这世界就在我眼前
就在我眼前

KTV Fun Time!

2008-09-07T02:34:28Z

Its was one of those rare times that I will do something that will take everyone by surprise. Yesterday while I was preparing to go to work in the morning, I was watching a variety show in Taiwan and there was this guy who looks like 林宥嘉 and his singing was honestly quite good. He was singing the song 你是我的眼 and the chorus got stuck in my head. Found myself humming the tune and realised that I would like to try to learn to sing this song. Hence decided to ask around if anyone wanted to go KTV! Finally found a willing party (Wendy) who kindly helped to gather a couple of other friends (Wanting and Bruce) to come along and WOW, did we sing our heads off! We went to KBox at Marina Square for the K Buffet where we stuffed our faces with food and screamed our lungs out. Hahaha. Had a great time! Think I created a record for myself and sang the most number of songs I've ever did at any KTV session. The rest was so surprised! Haha.

Here are the songs I sang, think should be about there, hummed along to some other which I didn't really count. The rest I've forgotten!

品冠 - 我以为
光良 - 童话
光良 - 约定
阿杜 - 差一点
阿穆隆/许茹芸 - 男人.女人
李圣杰 - 痴心绝对
蕭煌奇 - 你是我的眼
高明骏/王馨平 - 今生注定
吳忠憲/温岚 - 屋頂
葉啟田 - 愛拼才會贏
Tank - 非你莫属
卓文萱/曹格 - 梁山伯与朱丽叶

Monthly Report

2008-08-23T06:16:36Z

It has been a month since I started working at my new workplace.Now my life is filled with nothing but work. To illustrate this point, as I'm posting this entry, I squatting in a datacenter in front of a server console setting up an environment. Work is good I guess, takes away the spare time I have and prevents me from thinking about rubbish things. Brings in the money so that I can die with at least some money in the bank. Wish I can more time for my dancing and piano lessons though.

Had an interesting exchange of SMS last night. Found out that there was a potential chance years ago when there was a really sweet lady who was interested in me (though I have no idea why she would be) was missed. She said it was because she felt insecure about me as I was a lady's man (?? what the?) and often had ladies around me (?!?! since when?) and was afraid to be with me. That was really weird as I've never been very good with ladies and more often then not, I'm pretty much alone most of the time.

I guess life is strange. I never could tell what others think of me. Not just with ladies, but at work and with friends. I'm constantly baffled by all the weird impressions people have of me. Am I really that conflicting or I'm really that hard to understand? All I really want is a simple life where I do not have to worry about where is my next meal coming from and able to enjoy the simple pleasures of life. Like have a good meal and wine with my loved one, enjoying the sunset and it slowly dips and disappear into the horizon. Feeling the cool evening breeze around us as we enjoy simply the companionship of each other. Appreciating the presence of each other and knowing we are there for each other. Perhaps thats already too much to ask for.

Can't get it out of my head

2008-08-16T03:05:00Z

Chris Daughtry - What about now?

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Its the same everywhere!

2008-08-13T01:50:05Z

Haha, cannot resist posting this. Just got an email from VMWare regarding an URGENT patch. Same problems are encountered everywhere!

Dear VMware Customers,
Please find the latest update about the product expiration issue. From this point on, we'll provide an update every two hours. Thanks.

Problem:
An issue has been discovered by many VMware customers and partners with ESX/ESXi 3.5 Update 2 where Virtual Machines fail to power on or VMotion successfully. This problem began to occur on August 12, 2008 for customers that had upgraded to ESX 3.5 Update 2. The problem is caused by a build timeout that was mistakenly left enabled for the release build.

A Fresh Start

2008-07-18T02:24:59Z

Been wanting to update this blog for a while but wasn't really able to think of anything I really wanted to write about. So many things have changed that I seems to have lost track of quite a few of them. I think its time for me to find a new starting point and start defining my goals and objectives again.

Some note worthy things have been started though.

I'm in the mist of preparing for GMAT which is part of the requirements needed for the Master that I'm applying for. The preparatory lessons which I've signed up for are great. The instructor is interesting, the questions are challenging and interesting. 4 hours for each lesson of the course simply flies by when 2 hours of lecture during my varsity days felt like forever. Hopefully I get reasonably good results for my GMAT so that I can apply for the Master I'm interested in.

Started ballroom dancing again. Though may not be as intensive nor as regular as compared to when I 1st started, but its just as fun and I really enjoy the feeling of dancing. Competing may not really be an option now with my injury and all but I think I will at least try for the medal examinations.

Of course, I'm starting work at my new company next week. Still an IT oriented job but I see more opportunities to do different things and learn new skills. Will probably have to start from the bottom again which I really do not mind as I feel that I still have many more things to learn.

After waiting for 18 years, I started piano lessons! I still remember asking my parents to let me take piano lessons when I was in Primary 5 (11 years old). The reply I got was "神经病，不要浪费钱。我们家里人没有音乐细胞的". Can't really argue with my parents and I definitely couldn't afford lessons myself. Now I can finally afford lessons on my own. Though its kind of late to start piano at 29 years old, its better late than never!

Everyone is complaining that I'm fat!!! Oh well, its true though. I checked the scale and I did indeed put on 2kgs. Started jogging every since I got back from Thailand but doesn't really seem to help. Will have to take more extreme measures!

Hmm, contemplating on joining SDU (Social Development Unit). Perhaps then I may be able to find a girlfriend? Think I'm really what they would refer to as AFC (Average Frustrated Chump) suffering from one-itis. To top it off, I'm in the IT industry!

爱情

2008-05-14T04:33:42Z

最近因为没有什么事做，经常躲在家里看《土豆网》上的连续剧。现在正在看的是《我和殭尸有個約2》。我还记得当年学生时代，这部连续剧很受男同学们的欢迎。我想主要原因是马小玲的腿！我想，我一向都对比较"肉肉"的女生有好感。所以，我其实还蛮喜欢马小玲这个角色。昨晚，看到了将臣正在学习人类的感情时，跟马叮当的一段对白。是他们在排练《罗密欧与朱丽叶》时，令将臣明白什么是爱情的一段话:

"我宁愿他们用仇恨杀了我，也不愿意放下爱情来换取生命"

我做的到吗?

Major hangover ...

2008-05-04T15:22:42Z

Visited RCA (Royal City Avenue) last night. Went for a drink as I was really in a lousy mood. It was really early when I went, about 8pm. Nightlife in Bangkok don't really start until 12 midnight, but I didn't really care anyway. Went into this club which seems like its playing some decent music and ordered my bottle. Did not really recognise many of the drinks hence I just got myself a bottle of Johnny Walker Black Label and settled myself down. It wasn't that bad but I guess I wasn't really used to the taste and the choice of mixer was limited. Water, soda or coke. Could only finish about 1/3 of the bottle before I started to feel really grossed out and had to leave before I puke inside the club. Decided that taking a cab home would really be a bad idea. I really felt like puking and if I took a cab, I probably would have given the driving style here and the smell of cabs. I decided to walk home since it was only about 2.5km away and I was hoping that the air would clear my head. Boy, was that a really long walk or what. Nearly couldn't make it home and I had to stop a couple of times to try and stop my head from spinning. The air DID NOT help at all. The fumes from the traffic only made it worse. When I finally made it back to my apartment, I was almost gone. Collapsed on my bed the moment I could get my door to the apartment locked. The next morning, I woke up with a super hangover (and most of those who goes drinking with me knows that I don't get hangovers that easily). I was comatose on bed for at least another 2 hours before I could even get myself out of bed. Oh, and I chose the wrong part of the club to settle down cause right after I ordered my bottle, they started playing Thai pop music, crappy. Next time got to learn to survey the place a bit longer. Wonder if they will let me retrieve my bottle from another room the next time I go. Hmmm ...

Edit: I gave my bottle card away, not going to that crappy place anymore.

况天佑对马小玲说

2008-04-30T16:50:18Z

就算历史再重演,我也不会放手的...

马小玲对况天佑说

2008-04-30T14:53:56Z

我不想忘记阿 ...