October 2008 Archives

Ripped this off Chelsey's blog. Amazing how 2 words that sounds so alike but with such disparate meanings yet so intricately twined together.

Off to Australia in a couple of days. This will be the 3rd time I will be visiting Rockhampton, Queensland for yet another exercise. Though it will be on a much lighter note this time round as I will be back with a different status. NSmen! Haha. Hope this in-camp training will be a good opportunity for me to rest and to sort things out. Been rather confused and lost as to what I'm after.

This has been a rather unsettling week for me. Things are happening at such a fast clip that it is rather up to keep up. Also realised that my body and mind is finding it harder and harder to cope with the happenings that are going around me everyday. Age has slowly crept up on me without me realising it.

Received a piece of sad news on Wednesday. Feng Min has passed away. Even now, I find it hard to accept the fact that she's gone. I must admit, I do not know her very well nor for very long. She was a friend during a time when I was having a great deal of difficulties in my life. Her cheerfulness was something that lights up my days of darkness. Her unexpected little gestures that touches my heart. She's someone I will remember always though the times we knew each other is short.

Work-wise, things hasn't been really a bed of roses. I am kind of disappointed with the management team with the way that they are dealing with things and issues. Suffice to say that I will probably not stay very long with the company if things continue this way.

I know that sometimes it is always better to look at the bright side of things and be thankful of what I have and cherish every moment of my life. I have been trying my best but it is not always easy and with the way things are shaping up, its just going to get harder. Makes me wonder if all this is really worth it.

Feeling so drained, the chisel of life has slowly chipped me down. No longer am I sure of why I am doing what I'm doing. How I wish this chisel will be able to break me away from the chains thats tying me to the ghost of the past.

p/s: Feng Min, I will always remember you. May you rest in peace.

當所有的人離開我的時候
妳勸我要耐心等候
並且陪我度過生命中最長的寒冬
如此的寬容
當所有的人靠緊我的時候
妳要我安靜從容
似乎知道我有一顆永不安靜的心
（我）容易蠢動

我終於讓千百雙手在我面前揮舞
我終於擁有了千百個熱情的笑容
我終於讓人群被我深深的打動
我卻忘了告訴妳　妳一直在我心中

啊．．．．
我終於失去了妳　在擁擠的人群中
我終於失去了妳　
當我的人生第一次感到光榮
啊．．．．
我終於失去了妳　在擁擠的人群中
我終於失去了妳
當我的人生第一次感到光榮
當四周掌聲如潮水一般的洶湧
我見到妳眼中有傷心的淚光閃動