Monthly Report
It has been a month since I started working at my new workplace.Now my
life is filled with nothing but work. To illustrate this point, as I'm
posting this entry, I squatting in a datacenter in front of a server
console setting up an environment. Work is good I guess, takes away the
spare time I have and prevents me from thinking about rubbish things.
Brings in the money so that I can die with at least some money in the
bank. Wish I can more time for my dancing and piano lessons though.
Had an interesting exchange of SMS last night. Found out that there was a potential chance years ago when there was a really sweet lady who was interested in me (though I have no idea why she would be) was missed. She said it was because she felt insecure about me as I was a lady's man (?? what the?) and often had ladies around me (?!?! since when?) and was afraid to be with me. That was really weird as I've never been very good with ladies and more often then not, I'm pretty much alone most of the time.
I guess life is strange. I never could tell what others think of me. Not just with ladies, but at work and with friends. I'm constantly baffled by all the weird impressions people have of me. Am I really that conflicting or I'm really that hard to understand? All I really want is a simple life where I do not have to worry about where is my next meal coming from and able to enjoy the simple pleasures of life. Like have a good meal and wine with my loved one, enjoying the sunset and it slowly dips and disappear into the horizon. Feeling the cool evening breeze around us as we enjoy simply the companionship of each other. Appreciating the presence of each other and knowing we are there for each other. Perhaps thats already too much to ask for.
Had an interesting exchange of SMS last night. Found out that there was a potential chance years ago when there was a really sweet lady who was interested in me (though I have no idea why she would be) was missed. She said it was because she felt insecure about me as I was a lady's man (?? what the?) and often had ladies around me (?!?! since when?) and was afraid to be with me. That was really weird as I've never been very good with ladies and more often then not, I'm pretty much alone most of the time.
I guess life is strange. I never could tell what others think of me. Not just with ladies, but at work and with friends. I'm constantly baffled by all the weird impressions people have of me. Am I really that conflicting or I'm really that hard to understand? All I really want is a simple life where I do not have to worry about where is my next meal coming from and able to enjoy the simple pleasures of life. Like have a good meal and wine with my loved one, enjoying the sunset and it slowly dips and disappear into the horizon. Feeling the cool evening breeze around us as we enjoy simply the companionship of each other. Appreciating the presence of each other and knowing we are there for each other. Perhaps thats already too much to ask for.
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