All I can ask for ...

It was finally decided, I will be posted to SCS Thailand. My superior has been very kind to me by allowing me to be temporary out of the country even though there's no real good reason to send me out. I just need some time alone to myself. Perhaps I will be able to find myself again while I'm out there.

I look forward to be able to get away. However, at the same time, my heart is torn. I have no choice but to leave, thats the only way I can stop tempting myself, but I'm so sad. I can't bear to leave so many things behind. My heart aches at the thought that I will not be able to even see her, but I'm just making myself hurt more if I stay around.

I just hope that you don't forget me, thats all I can ask for...