Living day to day ...
Haven't had this feeling for a really long time. In fact, now that I try to recall, I do not really remember when was the last time I had this feeling. At various stages of my life, I have always set some kind of targets, goals or aims. Working towards what I want to achieve has made my life much easier to bear and time seems to fly.
When I was schooling, be it Primary, Secondary, Tertiary or as an undergraduate, I worked towards trying to finish my education. Getting from one level to the next. I do not really feel the need to excel, just satisfied being able to progress to the next level and to a reasonably good class. Involved myself in Track and Field and I was really obsessed with becoming the fastest sprinter in my school. Trained for hours each day. Trying to make it to the top few sprinters in Singapore in the age category.
Then it was time for National Service. Everyone tells me to just "keng" through it. I guess its the "gungho" nature of me that made me try to see if I could get into OCS. However, it backfired on me and I injured my spine during BMT. Really deflated my morale and self esteem. However, I was really lucky to have met a great S3 (Operations Officer) MAJ Ho Kian Soon. He gave me the opportunity to regain my self confidence and gave me many opportunities to do thing which most Full-Time National Servicemen wouldn't have the chance to come into contact with. I was really happy even though it was very very tiring, but I had a lot of activities to keep myself occupied and time really flew.
After graduation, I started working. Had some hiccups here and there, but in general, I was able to proof my worth in most of the places I worked at. Even now, I'm considered one of the fastest corporate ladder climber amount my peers. Striving to become financially self sufficient drove me to work and work like there's no tomorrow.
Suddenly, I've lost my direction. I cannot see or find a goal for myself that I can envisage myself working towards to. I realise that I'm just living my life day to day. Not sure of what I'm actually doing. I've got to get my life back together. Hopefully for the better. Got to find out what the hell is wrong with me!
When I was schooling, be it Primary, Secondary, Tertiary or as an undergraduate, I worked towards trying to finish my education. Getting from one level to the next. I do not really feel the need to excel, just satisfied being able to progress to the next level and to a reasonably good class. Involved myself in Track and Field and I was really obsessed with becoming the fastest sprinter in my school. Trained for hours each day. Trying to make it to the top few sprinters in Singapore in the age category.
Then it was time for National Service. Everyone tells me to just "keng" through it. I guess its the "gungho" nature of me that made me try to see if I could get into OCS. However, it backfired on me and I injured my spine during BMT. Really deflated my morale and self esteem. However, I was really lucky to have met a great S3 (Operations Officer) MAJ Ho Kian Soon. He gave me the opportunity to regain my self confidence and gave me many opportunities to do thing which most Full-Time National Servicemen wouldn't have the chance to come into contact with. I was really happy even though it was very very tiring, but I had a lot of activities to keep myself occupied and time really flew.
After graduation, I started working. Had some hiccups here and there, but in general, I was able to proof my worth in most of the places I worked at. Even now, I'm considered one of the fastest corporate ladder climber amount my peers. Striving to become financially self sufficient drove me to work and work like there's no tomorrow.
Suddenly, I've lost my direction. I cannot see or find a goal for myself that I can envisage myself working towards to. I realise that I'm just living my life day to day. Not sure of what I'm actually doing. I've got to get my life back together. Hopefully for the better. Got to find out what the hell is wrong with me!
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